Mixed with a Hiatus.

I don't remember when I even started to write this blog because I wrapped myself up in work.  I spent the past week and a half working on an independent feature film.  What kicked enthusiasm into me the most was the fact that I was getting paid.  The film and television industry are so poisoning that I've been trained to feel special because I earned a few hundred bucks to put in a fuck load of time.  Any other job its unheard of to do work for free.  The entertainment business has people fooled.  Lots of new people are convinced they must do work for free.  So I spent a considerable amount of time on this set, working as a director of photography.  The crazy part about all this is that I found this job on Craigslist.  The readers digest version of exactly how I landed this job is simple.  I have a compulsive habit of searching for jobs on craigslist and this guy who hired me was in a tight spot.  I feel as if I owe him an incredible amount of gratitude because its not the worst thing in the world to be paid to do exactly what my degree trained me to do.  There's a fuck load of positive to this situation.  At the same time, there are also a handful of negatives.  The first day on set I invested close to 9hours of my day.  The flip side to things is that the amount of actual filming done was maybe half of that time.  I've figured out a long time ago that I get annoyed when time isn't being used properly and when people are late.  On this set both peeves that I just listed happen all the damn time.  I guess before I go any further its best to break things down.  This film is funded and written by a woman who first wrote a book.  Shes adopting her book(which is a 1st in a series of books) into film.  Cool idea, been done before but there is an audience for the content.  Legally I can't go into too much detail about the film but I can still paint a picture for what's chapped my ass.  Production is divided into 2.  There's the production company(i.e supplier of film equipment) and then there are the people on the creative side of this film.  The writer/exec producer has her own crew of people.  Every day I've showed up to work we would easily wait over an hour to start filming.  This is completely ass backwards from what I learned while finishing my college career.  I usually kept quiet but as the days would go on I would at least ask what the hold up is.  It was brought to my attention that all Indie films work this way.  I was told that indie films have constant schedule changes, crew members don't need shooting schedules and crew members need to just wait for the actors and crew gets shit on.  That's an accurate description of what I sat through all week but it shocks me if other productions work this way.  When I was crafting my skill and working on sets for free I was always told if you're late you're fired.  It's been an interesting experience and I'm almost done with this film.  Oddly it took something bad for me to get this gig  as the person I took over for came down with pneumonia.  I'm hoping to build off this and keep working with the production company, although I'm in for a world of hurt if I work on another feature length film that turns into people being late all the damn time.  While all this was going on the book and the record took a backseat.  Thankfully I've had understanding people on that front, and actually when I've mentioned why I had to hold up on both projects I was given encouraging words.  That's a plus.  Frankly my brain is fried at the moment and I'm fully convinced that unless you're a paid journalist or work as a writer in some regard, that blogging is just another hobby.  A time consuming hobby, but never the less a hobby. A handful of chapters of my book were sent off to the publisher and now I wait on that.  I kept thinking that it would be nice if one of these projects I'm working on sticks.  It's been a fucked up few months, but at the same time I have no remorse to take chances.  Way too many of you people are settling.  History books never wrote about people who settled.  They'll write about huge failures and huge successes but I can't seem to find anything about "John Q. Regular-guy" who settled down in his mid-20s.  I actually felt terribly vain while catching up with a friend.  I was rattling off the laundry list of things I'm doing at the moment.  It's a loaded question to inquire about what I'm up to.  I get bored easily, as dumb of a reason as that may seem.  At this point in time I nothing noteworthy to say.  I'll just end it on a comment I had thought of.  Social networking sites always interest me.  There are some people who's perceived life via the internet is a constant fucking vacation.  Some of the people who I know always seem to post weekend getaway photo's or vacation pictures.  I sit there and see that in my updates and just wonder what the hell I did wrong in life.  I've not ever gone on a cruise or a huge theme park or any of that.  A vacation for me is almost non-existent because even on days when I'm not at my 9-5 I feel lazy if I just sit at home.  I'm not capable of it.  I also have a hard time justifying going out into the big city.  Maybe at some point in life I'll splurge.  For now I gotta survive.